Single

Single:

Ugh- Sometimes it really bothers me. Let’s face it… No one wants to be alone. We weren’t created to be alone. I know that people will say “This is the perfect time to spend with God or travel or something else- no one is holding you back”. I am 30- I’ve had PLENTY of single life. I am thankful that I WAS able to travel the world and to help the hurting people in this world. But, now I am ready for the next thing. It doesn’t help that people ask when I am going to get married or if I am ever going to have children even if I am not married because I am already 30, ya know. Clock is ticking.

I joined E-Harmony a few months back and have exchanged a few emails with people, but, that was it. Nothing went anywhere. Either I am not interesting enough to them or I am too picky when choosing. I wish I could say that I have met anyone and it just didn’t click on the first date… but, nothing has even progressed that far. I have never been one to date much at all, so I guess it isn't a big deal… I will keep telling myself that, but, that is not how I feel anymore. I want to date… I want to be pursued… I want to move on with the next chapter. I am tired of waiting. Haven’t I learned enough patience, God?

Ephesians 4:1-2  I, therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, entreat you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling with which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, showing forbearance to one another in love.

I have gone through some rough patches and I think, how awesome would it be to come home from a bad day at work and just melt into my husband’s arms and let him help me through. Sure, I have great friends in my life that I can ‘vent’ to, but the relationship with a spouse is going to be different. We will live everyday together. In good times and bad times, in sickness and in health… we will have one another’s backs and be able to stand when the other can’t.

Galatians 6:9  And let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we shall reap if we do not grow weary.

Am I lonely? Yes. Would I like to be married? Yes, indeed, but it is all in timing. I know that God’s timing is perfect and that my Husband is out there praying for me… even before we meet. I have always prayed that God would spare my heart in relationships. I asked that He would give me big signs if I was not with the person He wanted me to be with. He answered that prayer each time with no heartbreak. I knew I wasn’t supposed to be with the men I was with and God made it known. (Some of the ‘signs’ are pretty funny, and I can’t wait to share them someday)

I am going to go back to the word I used a few days ago… HOPE. I do have HOPE and the FAITH that God will bring me a husband. I am not giving up hope. I may get lonely at times, but I am never alone. I am excited to be a wife and mom one day. I am ready for that day, but, I will wait on His perfect timing…Even if I don’t know when.

Isaiah 30:18 (ESV) Therefore the LORD waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the LORD is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for him.